For those people who know me closely , they would know that i am a single child to my parents.But i had a sister.She was not a living being but was a doll made of straws gifted to me by my father when i was 3.We had named her Shobha.She was a very cute girl and i used to spend a lot of time of my childhood with her.
I used to celebrate her birthday every year on March 3rd in a very discreet manner.Dressing up her with all kind of props had become my pastime.I used to sleep keeping her near my head.I had become so protective of her that i had bitten my elder cousin's hand when he had tried to come near it.
At that young age being as immatured as i was i had made plans for her marriage,the grandness with which i would celebrate her's(of course i was part influenced with my father marrying off his three sisters and the immense difficulties we as a family had gone through).I wanted to go through all the grind.With my penchant for always thinking big i had always imagined her wedding in the Bangalore palace with richness and exuberance.She was the sole outlet of all my feelings.She would patiently hear all what i had to talk,though she dint have anything to add to it.
But after few years the straws had started to fall off and eventually Shobha was taken away from me by the very person who gave it to me.I was cross with my father for a few days but then we sat down and had a man to well, a boy talk.But still i could not forget her.
She was the sister i never had.When i see my friends with their siblings and the closeness they enjoy i feel jealous,filled with envy.
They have so many stories to tell of each other,feelings churn inside me as to why i dont have one.But being a single child you learn to live that way.I have somehow come to enjoy my loneliness. But God you played a very rude game with me. You could have been more generous with me.
Anyways people who do have siblings,treasure these relationships all your life because single children like me would know the pain of not having one.
And as for you Shobha - maybe some other janma......
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